Sunday, September 14, 2014

【Dear Diary】 Tired Of You, 'Friend'

When the light started out they don’t know what they heard
Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world
We'll be raising our hands, shining up to the sky

'Cause we got the fire, fire, fire
Yeah we got the fire, fire, fire

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It’s been a while since the last time
I posted about my thought, my life.
Because actually I think it’s not for public,
It’s my private life.

But I was a bit sad about a few things
Happened to me in the past 10 years.

My life can’t be categorized as a happily ever after
Like the one in the Disney fairytale.
But I’m pretty content and happy with it.
There’s no perfect life, just do your best to strive your best.

I have a family and a place I can call… home.
A comfy bed anytime I want to sleep,
A delicious meal 3 times a day,
A job that can give me steady income,
So I can pamper myself and loved one,
A small amount of friends
but have a great attitude and personality,
And many more.

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I used to have a beautiful friendship (or so I thought)
With a few people in the past 10 years.

Being backstabbed by people I called friend,
It’s too much, still too much after all this time.

So, there’s this particular ‘friend’ whom I thought
Very wonderful inside and of course outside.
I won’t say name, but I think some people
Already know who is this ‘friend’.

This ‘friend’ always said we’re best friend.
But in fact, we were and never been a best friend.
I even doubt this ‘friend’ ever think of me as a FRIEND.

Everything I did for this ‘friend’ is nothing.
Never once I betray the friendship we had.
I had faith in everything this ‘friend’ said to me.

I actually didn’t understand why many people around us, avoid me
And won’t even talk to me, ditch me as a friend,
And they won’t respond to me.

I have a hypothesis actually about what happened.
Maybe because of someone we both met a few years ago.
And… I got confirmation about it from several trusted friends.

But long before that, this ‘friend’ already stabbed me really bad.
It hurts to know our friendship is nothing for this ‘friend.’
But I learn to let go the pain.

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First, I won’t harm myself for anyone in this world.
If I have to die, it’s because God wants me to.
He is the one whom have full control of my life.
Not because I’m so desperate over this and that person.

When Hide from X Japan and Jasmine You from Versailles,
My uncle and grandparents from my father passed away,
I was so sad, that I was crying over them.

But crying will be my last salvation for my grief.
Not killing myself. For GOD sake, I have a SANE mind.

Second, I always claim handsome guys I like as “husband.”
I always say “I love you” and “I miss you” to them.


Check my twitter and you’ll see I posted it.
I even posted with love and kiss emoticons.
It’s a common thing in fandom and being fangirls.


Yes, I love Yoshiki from X Japan,
Kamijo from Versailles, Sugizo from Luna Sea,
Hisashi from Glay, Hiro from Nocturnal Bloodlust,
I’ll from Fest Vainqueur, and many other handsome guys.


Here’s a print screen of my LOVE for them,
Click for bigger size :





*note, Hizaki-Chan is a male musician. ;D

Sometimes, these guys replied their fangirls
With love, hugs, kisses too via social media.


And many of them also allow fans to hug them when meet up.
I also want to hug Chris Hemsworth ! :D
Hugging Chris Evans and Henry Cavill too~~~
I would love to hug Lee Pace too if possible, hehe~


I heart Megan Fox, Scarlett Johansson, Miranda Kerr,
Keira Knightley, Salma Hayek and more.
They are my wifey ! Kiss kiss~ XD


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But, it doesn’t mean I want to marry them.
It’s a pure admiration.

What will I do if I’m able to meet Angelina Jolie ?
I will ask her, if it’s possible for her to sign my DVD of her movies,
And a hug, please, Mrs. Pitt ?


By the way, congrats for the wedding, Mr. & Mrs. Pitt !
You two are love of my life~~


And yes, I won’t hurt myself if I can’t meet any of my idols.
If they don’t respond to my love declaration, it’s their right. 8D

I don’t mind, as long as they don’t hate me.
I don’t want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.

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And my thought right now ?
Just like The Beatles’ song…

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~

Hey, ‘friend’ dear,
You can badmouth me as much as you want.
It’s your right.

If doing that makes you happy,
Go for it, Baby ! ;D

I won’t stop anyone whom wants to spread bad rumors about me.
True friend will double check with me everything they heard.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~

Still, I thank you, ‘friend’ darling,
For everything happened between us.
I purely feel happy when we were still a ‘friend.’

But, it was fun while it lasted.
So, adieu my ‘friend’ sweetie !
I hope you will find a true happiness.



 ミ Vienni ミ

Sunday, July 6, 2014

【BJD Con】 AniCult 2014

The memories from that summer
Are still vivid even now

Always, when I remember them
Being with you is great

We were in a dream, in love
And there, we really loved
I wanted to believe that it was fate

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As a BJD owner since 2009,
it's my dream to go to a BJD convention
and experience the 'battle' of getting
limited dolls & stuffs... LOL

So, I decided to come to Surabaya, Indonesia
on June 6~10, 2014.

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Day 1

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So... I packed everything in 2 red luggages,
and additional 1 hand bag.
Got my own stuff, dolls, outfits, wigs, etc...

I brought my Luts HDF Choux -Sweet Holiday,
IpleHouse JID Kyle, RingDoll RingTeen Pan,
Volks SDGr Ryoya Konoe, Little Monica Harmony Crow,
Luts SDF Blanchet, and Soom MG Ender.

But I didn't take out my Pan & Ryoya
due to personal reasons.


I got the first flight for the departure from Jakarta.
I was so excited yet nervous.


Waiting in airport lounge...


Bye bye Jakarta~


We can order Share Tea in the flight !
How cool was that ? ❤


Mount Bromo ?


Landed in Surabaya~


Getting my luggage~~


And went to my rented apartment by taxi.
Interesting fact, I always get pretty chandelier
in the lobby everytime I go somewhere by myself.

Had something similar when I went to Manila last year.
I miss their Filipino Mangoes... sobs...


Had to wait a few hours before I can rest in my room.


My bed, only for me, hehe...
Wait... is that you, Hizaki ?


The sofa... why are you there as well, Hizaki ??


She was so happy to join her first BJD con !


Selfie ? :D


 ... I thought you'll accompany me
to meet Hiroyuki-San, CEO of Dolk-Japan, Hizaki...


 I had great time with Hiroyuki-San.
Kinda surprise to know his last name,
since I also use Hiroyuki as my last name online...^^;

Although I can't talk Japanese...
And his English wasn't fluent...
But we managed to chat and I bidded him farewell
after a long talk at Starbucks.

 Went back to the apartment
and found Hizaki... "Let's play, Granny ?"
 


 Are you a nocturnal species, Little lady ??
Phew... go to sleep, Hizaki baby...

I changed my dolls' outfit into yukata
as promised, matching the theme --- Matsuri.

Went to sleep after 2.00 AM...

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Day 2

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Getting ready for the first day of the con !
Selfie selfie hehehe...


Arrived at the venue, I met Hiroyuki-San
and Little Monica's staffs.

Later on, I learned that they were Mr. Lee,
the CEO & sculptor of Little Monica,
Ms. Lee, the designer, and Mr. Cho. 

I was thrilled to see how LM displayed everything.
So beautiful and lovely !
The props were all fascinating.

And I was... "NOOO WHAT'S THAT IN THE CORNER ?!"


WHITE SKIN HONEY HARMONY BLOSSOM LUCILE !!
 

IN HER CUTE ADORABLE LOVELY YOU NAME IT..
 

FULL SET !!!

This is my money, just take it................. ~(TwT)~

I quickly talked to Mr. Cho...
I asked him if that cutie is for sale.
He nodded and I was like... Good bye money.

I again, asked him if it's possible for me to buy her.
He again, nodded with smile.

 1 of my grail dolls... oh nooo... ❤ ❤

 I accompanied LM for both days.
It was totally fun with them~!

 Aaaand... they brought...
Gloomy Lucile... so pretty~~~


Gloomy Enrill...  


Basic full doll was available too.
Default face up was included.


Aki was there. Hur hur~
I brought him, Jade & Hizaki for day 1.
Had Yoshie & Shuji for day 2 too.

But due to several reasons,
only this photo is good enough to be shared.


The kind-hearted LM gave this
full set Harmony Eden for lottery on day 1.


Move on to Doll Hearts...
My ultimate goal in this hobby is
to have a full wardrobe for my doll
with all DH outfits & shoes ! ;D



LM Harmony Sophia was the first one
to be marked sold out.
Next was Blossom Lucile, yay~


Ended the day with dinner together with LM,
Liza (DH's translator) & Maureen (LM's).

I showed them my LM Crow, Shuji.
And Mr. Lee said he recognized him through DoA !
OMG... I feel honored for it.

LM Crow is my most favorite mold from them.
Second will be Blossom Lucile.
Then... Monica. 

Tiring day, but felt happy cause of these doll people.
Ah, I love them~

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Day 3

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The lovely Ring Doll & Blue Fairy couldn't come
but they gave dolls for lottery day 2.


Rice in our lunch box was heart shaped.


Got treated by LM, very kind of them~! ❤


My sweethearts. ❤ ❤ ❤
Liza was the girl whom taking pics.

Left to right :
Mr. Cho, Ms. Pang, Ms. Wong, Ms. Lee,
Mr. Lau, Hiroyuki-San & Mr. Lee.


Gloomy Enrill sold out on day 2 !


LM treated us again, this time for dinner.


Ended the day with hang out at Starbucks.
Too bad Hiroyuki-San couldn't join
due to his morning flight on Monday.
Safe trip & hope to see you again !

We talked a lot and totally had fun.
I should have take photos with everyone... T_T ...

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Day 4

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Kinda busy cause LM was moving
from the apartment to hotel.

After everything was finished,
I went to Starbucks to meet DH & Liza.

I bidded them farewell at night
and went to meet up with LM again.

I thought they're resting,
but they went out to nearest mall instead.

LOL

So, as promised, I took them to a local restaurant.
And glad they liked it !

Went to a cafe near their hotel and had desserts.
Again, local desserts for them.

Mr. Cho, me, Ms. Lee & Mr. Lee. ❤


So sad I had to say good bye...

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Day 5

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I was flying back to Jakarta with heavy heart.
Took a few pics from my seat...








Anyway... I brought home a load of DH's stuff...
And LM Blossom Lucile in WS-FS. 

Super lovely LM let me bring home
the Blossom Lucile poster too.
Should ask them to sign it for me, huhuhu...


They also gave me a free Honey Harmony outfit
as a token of gratitude. OMG super nice people~❤

How can I stop loving them if they're too wonderful ?
I'm still waiting for any version of Crow though...

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The DH loot !
Outfits & shoes for dolls that
stayed at home during this trip.


My name tag got signed by everyone !


My cutieee, her name is Jasmine~
Look, Hizaki even gave her a teddy bear~


With uncle Shuji hehehe...
My LM Crow~~


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I sincerely hope to see them again.
I will try to save up, so I can go to
Japan, HK & Korea, to meet them...

Hopefully I can think of what to buy to reach $3,000 soon.
I really want LM's Monica to be Jasmine's mother. ❤
I'll name her Vitya.

Money... money... come to meee...

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Full photos can be seen here :


Videos of Dolk & Little Monica :



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Until then...

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Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days

I was beautiful then
I remember

The time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again



 ミ Vienni ミ